Longtime no see you.

I am going to try to write my dialy again.

I wonder dose somebody will check my English......

I have a baby now.

I'm pregnant.

A couple of days ago, I checked that by myself, use a pregnancy kit.
It was positive.

My boyfriend said "That is a huge surprise, man." but that is NOT a lie, that is true. Next morning, I did test agine and I shoud it to him.

"Oh My GOD! I'm going to a father!!"
Yes you are sweety, and me, I'm going to a mother too.

Is that for real?
Yes.

New York kills me!

Today was really cold in New York City.
It made a new record.
I don't want to know that, you know.

I remind that one movie which title is "London Kills me".

I really don't remember that the story but it was sooooooooooooo cold winter in London and a boy who is main character and who is teenager, maybe 17, dosen't have a job, sell drugs, dosen't have an own apartment too.

It seems really cold on the screen, yes, it did, I guess, that's why he side "Dammmmm, London Lills me!"

I'm really really remember that.
How can I forget that?

Please don't kill me, New York City!

Can you here me?!

An Holiday magic.

His name is manuel who is my first an American friend.
We used to work same Japanese restaurant at 56th street. At that time he was a dishwasher(after that he became a sushi shef) and I was an hostess. That restaurant was really Japanese and maybe 85% were Japanese who didn't speak English anyway.

We became a good friend because I spoke Spanish and he is from the South Bronx, it means he is NewYorker and also Puerutorican, speaks Spanish too.

But I quit that restaurant in 2002 and he quit in 2004 and I lost his telephone No.

Sometimes, I really wonder about him, however I cannot contact him anyway.

Today I've got same text massage from him.
It was looooooon time no see him, actually over one-year.

He was good but he is looking for a job.
I hope he can get a new job, I know, he is good worker anyway.

We are going to see next week.
How can I wait?

It was magic.
Thanks an Holiday.

Happy Thanksgiving Day

Today is Thanksgiving Day.
I really wanted to go to Macy's parade but I couldn't wake up.
So, I am watching TV now.
It's OK because freezing out side, 40F.
My Boyfriend wanted to go to over there too.

On Tuseday my boyfriend made a Turkey it was first time and it really looks gooooood, oh yeah, tast good too, I had it.

Let's eat tha Turkey.
Do you like a turkey?

So now, Holiday season is coming.


Happy Holiday!

I don't like me.

I don't like my mother.
We both speak Japanese but we cann't understand each other.
No, maybe my mother dosen't want to understand what do I say.

Always my mother said to me " How can I understand you." and " Why you are like that? Why you can't to be a normal person?"

I think my mothre wanted control me what dose she want to be and embarressment to me.
That is fine.

But now, my attitude is like my mother.
Really like her.

Oh, Juses!

I'm really love my Boyfriend but I'm really control him what do I want to be.

Nobody can't control to anybody.

I know but I can't stop.
How can I do that..........?


I don't like myself now.

Do you like Hideki Matsui?

Hideki Matsui made a new four more years contract with the New York Ynakees.
50billion dollers(or more?) deal and it measn he is the Most Expencive Major League Japanese player now.

A lots of Japanese think this is a great things and be proud of him like as their child and, they think it support to be.

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I have a no idea why 95%(maybe more, maybe close 100%) Japanese people like Hideki Matsui. I've never ever heared about his negative things. He hasn't have a schandal, like cheeting with somebody I guess (how do I know? I am not his big fan, anyway).

"He is a good person. He is a great person, he has a great personality. He've never ever given up in his life." something like that.

I know he is a great. He plays ballgame amazing, you know. How could he adjust to play baseball?
But it is not intersted in to me. What dose it mean "GOOD person, really honest".

Ok, but here is my point, he is Not SEXY.

Don't you think so?

Well, maybe Japanese people don't care about "SEXY" things, I understnand because I was too when I lived in Tokyo.

Japanese love just "GOOD PERSON to everybody insted of SEXY".


Boooooooooo!